i should have been prepared for a whole year of isolation from friends, family and loved ones when i registered for this sorry excuse of a university 8 months ago. i thought i was prepared and i thought i could handle it. but things got a little out of control and i wasn't prepared for it at all. what i need now is friends. close friends. and laughter. i haven't had that for a long time. i can't seem to move on when i'm here. everything is so....uncertain. i can't get a proper job, i don't want to get too close to people, i'm not achieving anything, i don't have a LIFE. well it's not like i was doing very well in kl either but at least i had a job, close friends...and people that made me genuinely happy. blargh. seems like the thing i do best these days is bitch. 10 more weeks to go for this to end. ten....long....weeks. i swear before i get on the plane to go home, i'm gonna look back at this sorry state, stick my two middle fingers in the air, swing it around and say "FUCK YOU CANBERRA I'M GOING HOME!!" and proceed to cackle like a madman.

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to the very few people that still read this blog, i miss all of you terribly.