felt so lonely when midnight arrived. it was the first time in 5 years that i was going to celebrate this occasion "alone". i'm usually okay doing things alone, i rather enjoy spending time with myself because i'm a narcisstic bastard, but at times like this, i'd like to know that i'm remembered. especially by some people.

the clock struck midnight. i looked at my phone, nothing. no messages, no missed calls. but that would be my own fault. only gave out my number to 6 people. but out of that 6 people, one was important to me and just a simple sms would make my day. but nothing. even mom and dad didn't call. and that's just sad.

she called me at 5 am. she was drinking and it slipped her mind earlier. but it didn't matter anymore. you know how important you are to people when they choose alcohol over you. so i organized dinner with friends. small thing, nothing special, no big deal, light dinner at the local eatery with old company. what happened was a surprise dinner at a restaurant complete with cake which i got to eat too!! i'm surprised that these guys remembered and i'm thrilled that they took the effort to do something for me. they're not gonna read this, but thank you. it feels good to be remembered :)

Thanks to everyone who messaged and called :)
thanks for the e-greetings, those that remembered but couldn't contact me :)
shame on you, those that forgot. but i forgive you because i love everybody :)

i feel oooooooooooooooold