a bit of an emo post coming up, boo fucking hoo

i met these jokers when i first stepped foot in australia. travelling alone, i expected to feel lonely and friendless as i didn't know anybody who was going to go to the same uni. i've heard some of their names, even met some of them once or twice before, but i can't say i really knew any of them. i was prepared for a year of loneliness, being very slow to warm up to people and all. but never once did i feel that way.

upon meeting me, they treated me like a close friend. knowing i couldn't cook to save my life, they invited me over for meals. although sometimes the results proved disastrous (try almost setting the microwave on fire or filling the house with smoke from burnt food. aiya but the rest of the time the food tasted great la, honest!) the very thought of them cooking for the lot felt familiar. it felt slightly like belonging in a strange dysfunctional family. like being at home. although i can't say i spent much time with these guys, they are the people who kept me company. they cared for me when i was ill. gave me a hand when i was down. helped me get through one of the most saddest times in my life. we loved each other and was loved in return. in a non sexual way of course.

these guys are having their graduation tomorrow. i regret not being able to be there with them. out of the many rash stupid decisions i've made in my life (let's not even go there) not going for this graduation is the only one i've ever regret making. it would be nice to be standing there with them, in our graduation robes, proudly holding our hard earned certs, smiling stupidly for the cameras, throwing our hats into the air, all that jazz that goes on in graduations. the guys would throw the girls in the air. the girls would slap the guys for not catching them on purpose. and the passing of the little graduation bears that we planned to buy for ourselves and swap between one another so everyone gets one. i never bought a bear and i'm sorry for that.

Ivan, you tubby fella...you helped me out a lot in our common subjects, giving me last minute tips and pushing me to work on it when i've given up. goin shopping with you was great, cos of your sense of style and your flair for the beautifying the hard chiselled male body (ahem) is great. man, i really 4 years is really too long...i hope you get some soon bro! *nudgenudgewinkwink* we'll meet up soon in kl :)

Wen, what can i say la bro...you helped everyone out a whole lot lar...sending us here and there, storing our stuff for us during summer break, getting us the free tvs, fitting all into your little car for going here and there and all...i can only thank you for all that lar though i'm pretty sure there's loads more to thank you for. thanks for being such a great friend man.

Steve, man you're a kangaroo humping idiot, but that's everyone loves you isn't it? :D hehe i'm kidding bro. didn't get to know you too well, but you've made some of us laugh by pissing a few of us off and i tell you my friend, being able to do that and not get kicked in the balls is a rare talent. i know i'm not going to see you again. but i really hope i will. just so we can slap ourselves silly ;)

Sonny, you fuck, because of you i started smoking again! quitting is hard enough without having friends call you out for ciggies all the time bro!! hehe no la you know i wanted it, considering what i was going through at that time of my life. you know, you're the one fella that has the same interests with me and that's why i enjoy going out at 3 fucking am to have a ciggy with you in the freezing cold. always there when i needed a friend...man i got a feeling we gonna go a long way bro ;)

Agnes is apparently the hottest girl in uni with skin so fair and bright it makes looking directly at the sun quite enjoyable (happy or not? i'm saying you're leng lui leh!!) where can i start with you...lending me cash when i was tight, cooking for me after classes when we got hungry, getting free pastries for us from the shop...what can i say man...you're an angel. although you piss me off half the time with your unpredictable explosive tantrums, you'll feel sorry soon after and apologize for losing it. i know i piss you off too with my lack of tact, but hey i try to make it up to you when i know i've somehow managed to get on your bad side k, and usually i don't make such effort ;) being in the same classes with you was a rollercoaster ride, plenty of ups, downs, and twirls but hell, i really enjoyed it and wouldn't think twice about giving it another go! we'll go yamcha soon allright?

Sharon, always up for doing silly things, making things look pretty, and always giving me a good slap in the head for being overly stupid. the one person i know who can give amber chia a good run for her money in "the most succulent lips" contest. your lips can turn those african american ladies (oooh i'm politically correct!) green with jealousy and your skin makes the black hole look...not so black. hehe allright that was mean, but you know i'm kidding babe! the thing i like about you is you're really fun to be with lar...i can insult you a million times over and yes, you'll slap me and all but it all remains good ;) oh and you brought me meds when i was so ill that one time. yes i still remember. i looked like death and i sounded like a frog. thanks for the fun times weh...hope to see you if i ever drop by singapore!

Gwyn, i tell you ar charbor, no matter how hot or pretty you are i still treat you like a little brother lar, even though you're older than me and look so sweet....man, you're one girl that can take the abuse and dish it out too! if i were to ever hit a lady, it'll be you cos i know you'll put up a decent fight, especially with a killer kick from those football thighs :D:D:D k la i shouldn't be so mean to the girls...thanks for being so sweet lar, entertaining us with late night movies, and the great meals...i think if i didn't meet you, i'd never have met sharon, steve or wenyang either so i'm glad we made friends with each other, although i know i freaked you out during gender bender ;) you have to lepak with me if i come to singapore!

Azleen, eh you graduated before us la so technically i shouldn't have to write anything about you here...but since your cooking is so delicious and you're such a sweet girl i've decided to write a thing or two about you :) SHE IS A GREAT COOK, HOT CHICK, SWEET TO THE BONE BUT SHE BREAKS HEARTS LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS!!! i love you too az!! hahaha...we really didn't get to spend much time together lar...but you seriously are a good friend lor!! sorry if i did upset you during the times in the MSA, the rapid fire was supposed to happen between me and said person only, i really don't know how you and a million other ppl got into the line of fire...well besides that, you make a MEAN NASI LEMAK!! look me up when you come back home to msia k :)

Steph and Sandy, you two are like siamese twins, always joined at the hip, never without one another...no wonder the both of you didn't get any men in uni lar, they wouldn't dare hit on either one of you when you're never alone are you? ;) you two will always remain in my heart, stephanie for making us wait outside of her room for at least half an hour holding her birthday cake, and sandy for making use of me to wash up all the plates after every meal :p i will refuse to marry sandy no matter how many times she asks just because for that reason. you girls take care k? i will see steph soon and sandy....well...depends lar...hehe ;)

okay the last thing i want to say to all these ppl in this post is..big love...i miss you guys and i honestly hope to see y'all soon. have a great time at graduation, and have a glass of wine each, for me okay? :)

allright enough with the mushy wushy fuzzy wuzzy heart warming tear wrenching emotional stuff, i feel like a girl already. where's the slasher flicks? i need to see some limbs fly before i start growing breasts.

hooooly shit, i just scrolled up and realized that i almost wrote a novel with this post...sorry for the obscene lenght ppl!! :D