love...such a sweet sweet drug dontcha think?

when you get it injected into your system, you get all high and happy, so happy that nothing seems to be able to bother you. after a couple of months, you get so used to the amount you're receiving that you need more to feel that special high again. It's just a matter of time when you start depending on it. When you suddenly go without it, you get withdrawal symptoms - depression, loss of appetite, insomnia, weight fluctuations. when you see other ppl high on love, it makes you yearn for it even more. You want to get it back. you'd do ANYTHING to get it back. anything just for that special high again.

I'm still getting it in small doses. the little things that ppl do, shows that they're giving it to me. obviously not in the volume that i received from you, but it helps. if you guys are reading this, you know who you are. thanks. i really appreciate all the company you've all given me.

I can feel your body
When I'm lying in bed
There's too much confusion
Going around through my head

And it makes me so angry
To know that the flame still burns
Why can't I get over?
When will I ever learn?

Old love,
leave me alone
Old love,
go on home

I can see your face
But I know that it's not real
It's just an illusion
Caused by how I used to feel

And it makes me so angry
To know that the flame will always burn
I'll never get over
I know now that I'll never learn

old love - eric clapton

sorry for all the cryptic and whiny posts. i sure hope the next one will be happier. and you...i'll see you soon :)